"i won't be there at your party...so over drink for me!"

 

smiled knowingly to myself, at that very cute line. birthdays usually incite excitement in me, regardless of whether there are celebrations or presents. It's just a day when i feel excited at having being born X years ago and thankful for coming this far, or regret not going as far. haha.

But this time, there's just a lot of sian-ness with the thesis which has spilled over into other aspects of life. Feeling melodramatic or pitiful or just apathetic about things is so easy. Life then slides into a state where everything is just dull with nary a joy. Okie, it's obviously easy for writing to sound depressive too. haha.

 

Guess i just want to be upbeat and optimistic about things, excited about people, about events, about myself, and enthusiastic about life. Frankly, turning 23 is something quite exciting to me, and the pre-birthday wish right now is just, haha just, to feel that adrenaline rush again. Feeling genuinely excited when i want to be, will be a great present.